confused:

closeness is the tendency that we fall in love to somebody..

hi.. iya nga pala.. 18 years old.. pashare lang.. di ko na kasi kayang itago ehh.. hehehe..

nakakainis lang.. di ko naman kasi akalain na tong closeness na to ehh matutuluyan at mapupunta sa LOVE.. :| kaibigan ko siya itago na lang natin siya sa code name na jes .. pareho kaming no relationship since birth ni jes..



recently, nainlove siya sa isa naming girl na friend.. pero di sila nagkatuluyan kasi si girl eh may BF noon.. so etong si jes brokenhearted.. that time brokenhearted din ako with someone so sakin siya humihingi ng comfort since pareho kami ng situation.. sa madalas naming magkasama sa school at magkatext kapag uwian naging mas close kami.. nakilala ko siya ng lubusan at ganun din siya sakin.. until one day sinabi niya na naka-move on na siya.. pero may conflict..





may common friend kami (classmate).. etong si classmate at si jes ehh laging partner kahit saan.. one time nagkwento sakin si classmate sabi niya: "mahilig ba si jes sa mga tawagan gaya ng honey? ganun?.."

sabi ko naman: "bakit tinawag ka niyang honey?"

sabi niya: "basta lang :D"

ako naman ehh: "yieeeee.. honey na tawagan nila.." pero deep inside parang kumirot yung puso ko..

that time nafeel ko na parang iba na to.. siguro nga gusto ni jes si classmate.. at ako parang nagsisimula ng magselos.. pinigilan kong mainlove sa kanya.. dahil kaibigan ko siya at alam kong kaibigan lang siguro ang tingin niya sakin.. pero sa araw araw na napapansin kong nagiging MAS CLOSE na sila jes at classmate di ko mapigilang magselos ng magselos ng magselos.. until one day.. di na kinausap ni jes si classmate.. di ko alam kung bakit.. basta ang sabi ni jes ayaw lang daw niya.. (malabo siya).. :D





ayun.. balik sa dati.. magkatext na ulit kami.. at one time sa text inasar ko si jes kay classmate.. sabi ni jes: "bakit ba inaasar mo kami?? wala naman akong gusto sa kanya.. na-assess ko na di ko naman pala siya gusto.. " and with that reply natuwa naman ako.. heto na naman ako.. naiinlove na ko kay jes sa loob loob ko.. dumagdag pa dun yung mga asaran ng mga kabarkada namin na bagay daw kami at kami na lang daw tutal pareho naman kaming single..



hanggang sa dumating yung araw na may nagsabing gusto daw ako ni jes.. inamin daw niya ito nung araw na naginuman sila at nalasing daw si jes.. kinilig naman ako.. at the same time natakot akong mainlove kasi baka naman di totoo tsaka baka dulot lang ng alak..



pero sa bawat araw na kasama ko si jes di ko mapigilang mainlove sa kanya.. pinilit kong layuan siya para di na ko mainlove sa kanya pero di ko din siya natiis.. natatakot ako kasi baka matulad lang to sa dati kong "ka-ibigan" na di ko din nakatuluyan.. hanggang ngayon CLOSE pa din kami.. tuloy pa din yung mga tuksuan, kulitan, kiligan.. at natatakot pa din ako.. ayoko siyang maging reason ng pagiyak ko someday.. pero ako kasi yung taong naniniwala sa kasabihang "if its meant to be, let it be.." haaaaayyyyyy..



the end.. :) 

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Funny Love Story Man

galing ito dito. hope you enjoy it as much as i do.

He said . . . I don't know why you wear a bra; you've got nothing to put in it.
She said . . . You wear pants don't you?
He said . . . Since I first laid eyes on you, I've wanted to make love to you really badly.
She said . . . Well, you succeeded!
He said . . . Shall we try swapping positions tonight?
She said . . . That's a good idea - you stand by the ironing board while I sit on the sofa and fart!
He said . . . What have you been doing with all the grocery money I gave you?
She said . . . Turn sideways and look in the mirror!
He said . . . Why don't you tell me when you have an orgasm?
She said . . . I would but you're never there.
On a wall in a ladies room . . . "My husband follows me everywhere"
Written just below it . . . " I do not"
Q. How many honest, intelligent, caring men in the world does it take to do the dishes?
A. Both of them.
Q. Why did the man cross the road?
A. He heard the chicken was a slut.
Q. Why don't women blink during foreplay?
A. They don't have time
Q. What do men and sperm have in common?
A. They both have a one-in-a-million chance of becoming a human being.
Q. How does a man show that he is planning for the future?
A. He buys two cases of beer.
Q. What is the difference between men and government bonds?
A. The bonds mature.
Q. Why are blonde jokes so short?
A. So men can remember them.
Q. How many men does it take to change a roll of toilet paper?
A. We don't know; it has never happened.
Q. Why is it difficult to find men who are sensitive, caring and good-looking?
A. They already have boyfriends.
Q. What do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?
A. A widow.
Q. Why are married women heavier than single women?
A. Single women come home, see what's in the fridge and go to bed. Married women come home, see what's in bed and go to the fridge.
Q. What is the one thing that all men at singles bars have in common?
A. They're married.
Man says to God: "God, why did you make woman so beautiful?"
God says: "So you would love her."
Man says: "But God, why did you make her so dumb?"
God says: "So she would love you."

a diary from a guy:

Very touching and meaningful story
(tanung lang: do guys write diaries? i dont.)



A Diary from a guy


*January 2*
Do you still remember the first time we met? It was the first day in school. I was hurriedly entering the school gate when I bumped into you as you stepped out of a luxurious Volvo. The books you were holding fell all over the ground. I quickly picked up the books and returned them to you along with words of apology, but all you showed me was your intimidating look. My first impression of you was thatyou were a wilful girl born with a golden sthingy in the mouth. I had rejected you completely and had hoped not to meet you again, but surprisingly you turned out to be my classmate.
*March 22*
I started to know more about you as days passed and my opinion of you changed for the better on each passing day. I realised that you were from a wealthy family but definitely not a wilful girl. You were nice and friendly. You got angry that day we first met because I had left a footprint marking on the poetry collection you loved dearly. We met often during lunch break and I found something in you that was different from the rest of the girls - your passion for Chinese poetry. Often you would mumble something to yourself. Initially, I thought that you were humming a pop song but
later I realised that you had been reciting Chinese poems from great poets. You were so knowledgeable that you knew every poet and which poems they composed. I was very impressed indeed.
*April 5*
I met you again in the study area. That day you were reading the Chinese classics "Romance of the 3 kingdom". Your ability to appreciate Chinese classics left me with admiration. You were indeed unique in many ways.
*May 5*
From then on, we would often meet in the study area to discuss about the good and bad things of the character in these Chinese classics. Do you still remember the time when we a! lmost br oke off because we could not agree on whether Jia BaoYu hurt Lin Dai Yu? Our argument was so fierce that we never talked for that week. But when Friday came, we still met in the study area and laughed over the incident. After which, another argument started.
*Aug 7*
I could not deny it. It was a feeling I could not identify accurately. Wenever you laughed over a joke with other guys, that emotion filled my senses. It took me a while before identified it. I was in love; the feeling was jealousy. I felt the need to express it. But, I was afraid...that you would dismiss my feeling, that you and I would be stuck in an embarrassing situation, that our long nurtured friendship would crumble...therefore, I kept quiet.
*Oct 1*
The news came as a shock to me. I was so worried when I learnt that you had fainted in the canteen. I was struggling to keep my worried face in control as I looked at the ambulance that carried you away.

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Mahirap mag mahal ng seminarista

 

After a long exchange of text messages, chatting and talks over the phone, Mer finally convinced Sum to meet.In one of the busy Malls here in the Metro Manila. Sum was skeptic. "What if Psycho sha? What if reypist? What if holdaper? What if member ng Ativan Gang? What if mainlab nanaman ako?!!? hayssst...ayoko na ata" This keeps on nagging her brain as slowly walk from Ortigas to Edsa to ride the MRT to Ayala. "Bahala na nga... Lord, ikaw na bahala ha..."



Mer on the otherhand was thinking of just the same thing. "what if hindi ako siputin?" But then, he thought, so what, Im going around anyway."



mer:*Ring ring*... san ka?



sum: Dito na ayala... pero nahihiya nako pakita sayo. wag na lang kaya.



mer: wag! Sayang, andito na din ako



sum: (kabado) ha, ganun ba? ngiiiii.. nahihiya talga ko, mukha na kse kong haggardness na nagkatawang lupa. haist... cge, mit kita sa Brownies



mer: Okay cge....



After 30 years



sum: *Ring* San ka na ba? (waiting at Brownies)



mer: dito sa likod mo...hehehe



sum: Ha?! eh pano yun eh wall ang nasa likod ko! Multo ka ba?!? waaaah! *lalo nang natakot*



HEHEHE... maling brownies pala napuntahan ni momer...=)



Finally they met. She saw her coming towards her flashing his ultra gorgeous smile....Sabi ni Sum, "OMG! sabi na eh... jujuju...bawal na mainlababoooooh!"



And they had their first date. Of course, Sum was a chatterbox and Mer was just there listening. Sum can not stop talking and Mer can not stop staring at her and listening to her. But time flies when you are having fun. Little did they knew, it was already time to leave.



Sum tried to prolong the moment and offered to have a coffee. But then, they both really have to go since they still have some responsibilities to attend to that day so they have just decided to ride the MRT together...



Siksikan sa MRT at napirat silang dalawa. Sa loob ng MRT...



mer: Beh! okay ka lang?!



sum: Ha!? Anung Beh ka jan?! Hindi mo ko baby ha...



mer: Beh! as in B... BUANG... feeling ka naman...hehehe



sum: ah ganun ba? ehehehe sorry *me araw ka din sakin..hehe*



As time went by, they had fun with their friendship. They had good laughs and good times together. They both thought that it was just a placid mutual friendship until Mer told Sum that he has to go back to school. To Tagaytay and that he does not know when he will come back... why? Because back then, he was a theologian.



Bang! Sum wanted to walk from SM North upto Monumento at that time. She wanted to think. She wanted to think why she was feeling different. She can not understand how she was feeling. Why in the world did she wanted to cry? Why in the world it feels like a huge part of her is slowly weakening? Why cannot she understand what is her feeling right now? She always wanted to have a priest friend to answer all her questions in life. And now that her closest friend is from a seminary, she must feel happy. But then again, why? WHY IS SHE FEELING THAT SOMETHING WITHIN HER WAS EXTINGUISHED? Bakit she is feeling nanghihinayang?!? It dawned on her...she fell in love with Mer.



"Sabi na bakla eh. Bawal na mainlababo... so much more yan, me vocation na yan! Lagot ka ke God! bubuka ang lupa! Tatamaan ka ng kidlaaat!"



Little did she knew that Mer is undergoing the same predicament. How can he be in love if he is bound to be the God of servant? Life is already written out for him and his destiny is there. Why meet such a person who would turn his world upside down when he is almost at the end of his journey?



Mer decided that he cannot live his life being untruthful to himself. So he told her, "I love you, but this does not mean you have to love me back. Just let me love you in silence. It will make me happy."



Sum did not quiet know what to say. Should she say what she really feel? Should she keep it? What will happen if she say it? What will happen if she had not? She is a girl who does not want to regret anything in her life. So she said it. But then she also admitted that she does not believe in fairy tales either. She will stick to the fact that she loves him but will do her best to let him go when the time comes that he had choose the life written out for him. They had be friends... until she could still can be friends with him and the hurt is not that much. But when the time comes that she has to let go, then she will.



They did not need to wait any longer for them to let each other go. Time came that Mer has to leave the country and stay away for three years in Germany to pursue his vocation. They cried that day... the day before and the day after. They have to let each other go and lead the life they had before they met each other. Though they promised to be friends still and to be in constant communication, they both knew deep inside that things will never be the same again.



He went away, she stayed. He lived his life as she lived hers. They remained good friends. She was praying for strength and enlightenment. She was praying for strength to accept the painful truth and enlightenment to see the goodness in what has transpired. She was praying everyday that may the will of God be done. She raised everything up to Him and let Him drive... "Jesus take the wheel.... drive us where we should be"



mer: *Ring.. ring* Beh?



sum: Baby mo ba ko? aahh, lam ko na.. Buang



mer: Me sasabihin ako...



sum: anu yun? me problema ka ba jan?



mer: Wala naman... gusto ko lang sana sabihin sayo na..*long pause*



sum: Na ano? Hilig mo talga mambitin...hehe



mer: Sunduin mo ko sa airport ha... uuwi nako sayo..



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